If Only…

If Only

 

If only I could say my goodbyes

While I was doing time sitting

Here wondering if only I could’ve

And should’ves run through my

Mind like a marathon wondering

When ‘dis shit stops I feel

Sick like I was on a merry-go-round

That just didn’t stop

 

Wonder when I was going to

Cop my next fix wondering if

Only I could stop ‘dis beast

Inside of me my mom’s crying

Wondering if only I could get

My son back off of that black

Tar heroin if only if only…

What if I did get off ‘dat shit

I would be ‘da best man God

Intended me to be Oso sweet

Helping peeps on ‘da streets

To get them on their feet.

 

~MB

 

 

If Only

 

If only live weren’t so lonely
if homies stayed homies fuck all the phonies

If only I chose a different path

Than looking behind at the path from the past

And blaming others for any faults as I laugh

Can’t life be different I think so different as it passed

But no it is late I feel like I’m in dead last.

Killed by my thoughts like I’m stuck in the past

If only if only I could go back in time

Change what I did and make my life mine.

If only if only we could rewind time.

Change what we are and have peace of mind.

 

~JT