OneBillionRising

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Hey I just wanted 2 let ya

Know that I’m Oso sorry 4 the

Pain I’ve caused 2 ya and startin’

Your life of mysery of heroin

And the streets of no mercy.. also

I wanted 2 say I did love

Ya with all my heart and soul

Even though it didn’t seem

That way… I just didn’t know

How 2 show ya ‘cause it’s

Hard 4 me 2 show or express

My feelings because of my

Extensive stay in

Institutions all of my life.. I’ve

Learned 2 not show or express

Them because you’re liable 2

Get hurt very bad.. the Lord

Knows how much I loved you

And only wanted the best 4 you

In your life I apologize

That I couldn’t bring it

To you I wish you the best

Life has to offer you from

Here on out even if it’s

Not with me

God bless you

And my step son…

Love always Oso…

 

~MB

 

 

A Billion Rising

 

A billion and one voices united together a billion and one screams

That’s two billion and two eyes crying for a billion and one shattered dreams

What have we become? What have I become?

Who am I to distort the dream of love?

I am nothing and yet I have become the monster I swore never to be

A product of violence at the hands of evil deeds

Even now as I stand before you my heart aches with remorse within the silence of its shame

To know that I the son of my mother allowed myself to become another reason for their pain

Just another statistic of domestic violence

And another reason for what is wrong with our society

How could I shame myself like this?

To bruise the same beautiful lips I used to kiss

God how could I take the happiness away

From the same lips that comforted my pain?How could I hurt the one voice that showed me the most love?

When she was the only one there for me when no one else was.

So now just like the dog that bit the hand that fed him

I beg of your forgiveness

And I promise you I’ll apologize for the rest of my life

If that’s what it takes, to apologize a hundred and a billion and one times.

But for now we’ll start with this. To every woman I’m sorry for anything I’ve ever done
to have ever made any of you ever feel unloved.

From the depths of my soul and all sincerity of my heart

I’m sorry if even for a second I made you forget who you really are
in fact I’m sorry for anything I ever did to hurt you

Even if it was something as simple as forgetting to remind you that you were beautiful.

 

God I’m so sorry for every night of every day

That I was ever responsible for taking your happiness away

And I’m sorry for every tear that ever fell from those beautiful eyes

On account of my anger or on account of my lies.

And today I stand before you and pray with everything that I am

That one day you will be able to find happiness again.
I’m sorry

A billion and one times I’m sorry.

 

~CG